I honestly don’t know what’s wrong with me. I woke up seconds before my alarm, and got up to pee. Yet I layed back down for “five more minutes” and ended up being late. Again. Am I self sabotaging?
Well as I’m getting ready to leave my second stop I was told that our carts had to be picked up today. Even though the driver was planning on not doing so. I had to give him a call and we were able to get him there. While he was loading I was chatting with him and the manager.
Talking about self sabotaging I have a really bad habit of falling for people I know I have no chance with. Well I mean let’s be honest I could fall for anyone and that would be true. I do tend however to fall for people that it’s certain I have no chance.
The manager at my second stop today is my current crush. I actually don’t fall often, but the track record is there. The last crush I had was my boss at my last job. I had known her since we were in high school. We had been working together a couple of years before one day I just realized oh my God I really like her.
One day I saw her reading a paper and reaching one arm above her head to reach something off a high shelf. I had the sudden urge to press her up against the shelf and kiss her. I had never had that urge before with anyone. And I was in my late 20s at this point.
I knew however that she pretty much hated me so that was that. My feelings for her only grew the next couple years. In my own mind I see myself as being extremely obvious. So I wouldn’t doubt it if she knew. Though neither of us ever said anything.
I think I probably come across as just a big idiot to everyone. I can’t blame them, I see myself that way a lot too. I do still have a crush on my former boss. Which has been about 5 years now. But I’m aware that it’s never going to happen. Much like all and any other crushes I’ve ever had.
To eat my feelings I decided to get dairy Queen for lunch. But when I got there they had to refund my order because they were unable to make food. I’m a bit sad. Not necessarily about the food, I mean it would have been nice. About life in general I suppose.
After work I decided to do a little doordash. I dashed for an hour and a half and I made $55. The last dash of the night took me halfway home. The tip was supposed to be 20 bucks which I thought was great but it turned out that there was a hidden tip! It was actually like 26! That made my night it was so great. $26 to deliver food! I hope I’m that well off someday!
I really wanted to keep gashing but it was 7:00 and I needed to get home. I also really need to pee. I’m trying so hard not to pee myself. I think I’m going to have to pull over I’m not going to make it.
When my bladder decides it needs to go, it needs to go. I was successfully able pee into an empty dunkin cup (oh the circle of life) and then dumped it out the window.
Before I got home I stopped at P’s house. He needed help adjusting the incubator. He is trying to hatch some guinea hen chicks for his friend. It is time to take the turner out of the incubator. It’s a tricky procedure take out the eggs and then take out the turner and put the eggs back in and get the cover back on all before they have a significant drop in temperature. We have it pretty down packed.
When I got home I was planning on taking a shower quick, but I realized I forgot to get dinner for the kids (animals). So T and I ran to the store for it. Then I was able to shower, feed the kids, and go to bed. What a day.
Best: $27 tip on my order!
Worst: letting the sad thoughts get to me a little
Good deed: I saw a younger homeless guy sitting in the rain. he seemed very upset. I only had two dollars on me but gave it to him. I told him to have a good day and through tears he said he was trying. I feel really bad for him.
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